Nobody shows you the engine.

I'm tired of telling the story of my near-death experience.

Since September 6, 2019 I have shared my spiritual awakening journey. Openly.

That was seven years of my life and a huge part of my content. We're done now.

I stopped posting for 3 months. It wasn't the algorithm. It was my fear of pivoting in public, while consuming the content that I truly wanted to make.

I don't watch spiritual content anymore. Not because it stopped being true. Because I already know that material inside and out.

What I watch now is copywriters. Salesmen. Digital Marketers. People who build a thing in public and publish the process as a story line. Genius.

I'm still deeply spiritual. The esoteric is in my veins. But there is meaningful money in your chart. You just have to know where to look.

I - Inspiration is the story we watch. Aspiration is the trap we buy.

If you're into the study of human behavior, sales psychology and the hermetic principles, then you know they are all pouring from the same cup. One source that starts with you. Other people are just the mirror.

I became fascinated by this human experience we are living. Especially during my deconditioning process. The more layers I shed online, ironically attracted tens of thousands of followers. My DM's blew up. Went on dozens of podcasts. I gained so much visibility but I felt so exposed. Exposure with nothing to give left me in shambles. The cost outweighed the reward.

People love to see the RAW parts. People only pay for the process.

We watch movies to get lost in a story. We watch reality TV because real people become archetypes we recognize. We scroll because we want to see somebody living a life we want.

But what about the life you were meant to live? It exists. It's a treasure and you're standing right on the X.

It's not in the aspirational loop that you're watching. Full disclosure. I don't make aspirational content. You won't find it here.

It's in the codes that you're ignoring. The ones you may not know exist.

Knowing the difference changed my relationship with money.

I craved financial freedom and depth. And I've found both in my own chart.

I don't do readings. I show you your system.

II - Techniques, Laws, & Mechanics

A technique is somebody else's method.

A law is everybody's physics. Rhythm. Polarity. Correspondence. Cause and effect.

Mechanics is your instrument. The system running underneath the idea of who you are.

A technique is something you apply. A law is something you're inside. Mechanics is something you are.

Most videos spit the same five ideas. Different vocabulary, different lighting, different font.

The newest manifestation technique gets repeated for months. Then fizzles out.

This isn't a knock. It's a diagnosis. Manifestation is VERY real. It's a technique that works perfectly -- for about 9% of the population.

The rest of us are burnt out trying to initiate like a Manifestor. That's the part we are sold and can't hold.

You've done all the scripting. Vision boarding. Affirmations. Nothing sticks.

Your real power is in the mechanics of your magnetism.

What does that feel like?

III - The Economic Engine

Vroom Vroom! Generators. Manifesting Generators. The engine of your economy is literally named the sacred bone.

An economy responds to stimulus. So does the Sacral.

Your motor is always looking for something to respond to. Work. Desires. Creativity. You are designed to keep that sacred energy flowing.

Not to be confused with the mind. The mind is the dashboard. It has never touched the wheel.

Your mind gets conditioned by the world. Your body carries what's true.

When work starts to burn you out, that's the check engine light. When it starts to feel like frustration, that's the reading, and the reading is not a character flaw. It's the sign you're out of alignment.

Projectors. Reflectors. I got y'all in another essay. You have a different stimulus package. That arguably runs on magic. 🪄 More on that later back to the motor.

Your aura wants an oil change.

When your car makes a funny noise, you take it to a mechanic. You trust them because you have to.

What started as a routine oil change is now a sky-high bill.

That is exactly what it feels like to buy somebody else's business system -- while ignoring your own.

Let's flip that. Focus 100% on your own system, your own intuition, your instincts. You can ignore the bigger system, "step out the matrix" but delulu needs direction.

Clarity is the solulu. You would never hire a mechanic off just vibes. You want to know where that noise is coming from. How to make that shake stop. You need that AC to work.

IV - The Mirror Under the Engine

Before they ever lift the car, a mechanic uses a mirror. A little one on a telescoping handle, angled up under the block.

Not because they're mystical. Because some parts of a machine cannot be seen from the driver's seat.

That's what a chart is. That's what the Cipher is for.

I couldn't see myself, so I built a mirror. It isn't a prediction and it isn't a personality test. It's an inspection tool for the parts of you that face away.

You are the only rabbit hole you need to go down.

Seven years of spiritual awakening, and somewhere in there I lost the material world entirely.

Eighteen years as a photographer, gone.

I escaped until I had my own economic crash.

Detachment led me to writing. Journaling was the place I felt safest.

The version of me I'd been looking for was standing on the other side of a system I had never built.

I had the mechanics the whole time. I was born with them. I just never looked at the schematics.

Deconditioning happens in the journal, in the dark, in the rooms nobody sees. Nobody can do it with you.

What comes after that can't be done alone at all. You need the other to integrate. But that's the next one.

Money isn't attracted to you. Money is attracted to the system you build.

- L10